Me, Myself and I

2004-06-27T15:53:00.000+08:00

What do I have to offer this world? What have I gained by living another day? Should I have lost? Should I have been hurt? Should things be the way they are? I don't know. If things were different in this life, I would be a better person. I wouldn't do the things I do. You don't always get what you want. People will always screw you over, if your not careful. Yeah, I've heard all of this before.

After, being so much disturbed and "stupid" for so many weeks, i have realized that i still have a great life! Great friends, great family, no major tragedies, I don't have a terminal illness, I suck at my work sometimes, but so what! I know what's important to me and I'm good at it. So why? Because something's missing. Some kind of contact, some kind of comfort, some kind of loving tht I'm just not getting from anyone. It's not enough, dammit. This life, these relationships, this contact...it's just not enough.

And in a heartbeat.. i get back myself again! And im feeling a lot better.. just waiting for the next best thing in my life! :D

2004-06-25T16:02:00.000+08:00

I dont know how to "express" what im feeling right now.. besides there is nothing to blog about moi.. *rolleyes* Hope i can at least say what im feeling with this song.. lolz!

MAYBE
By king

There i was waiting for a chance
hoping that u'll understand
the things i wanna say

But my love
stronger than before
i wanna see u more and more
but you close the door

Why don't u try
to open up heart
i won't take so much of your time.....

Maybe it's wrong to say please love me too
coz i know u never do
somebody else is waitin' there inside for you....
maybe its wrong to love you more each day
coz i know its here to stay....
but i know to whom you should belong....

I believe what u said to me
we should set each other free
that's how u want it to be....

but my love is strong
i don't knopw if this is wrong
but i know to whom you should belong........

2004-06-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

WARNING: VERY LONG ENTRY!! :P

Courtesy of my boss, i just arrived from Hongkong. Its my first out of the country trip.. so i am excited from the day we are applying for our passport.. :P

We left for Hongkong last June 11, together with my 3 other officemates and my boss' family. I was kinda excited cause i want to ride the cable car and check out the pandas and dolphins in the Ocean Park. And our first stop, Ocean Park! When we went out of the bus, we are taking pictures non-stop, LOL! I dunno, my boss is kinda obessed with picture takings! hihihi.. I checked out the pandas first, and after the cat family, they are next cutest animals for me! They are so fluffy and big... and i think i will be eating bamboos in the future, cause when i saw them eating, it seems that bamboos tasted really good. Because of my nature of being a "pasaway" i cant control myself saying that, Pandas are so cute in the fullest volume, so the keeper of the pandas, talk to me in chinese saying that i should lower my voice.. hihihi.. of course i cant understand every single word he said, i just figured his message cause he said Shhhhh.. LOL! Dinosaur Land is next, i was not really amazed cause duh, those dinosaurs are machines! Butterfly Kingdom is also great. We didnt checked out the bird paradise and the Kid's Place. Cable car is the most exciting part of our Ocean Park adventure.. im not afraid of heights but yikes.. that kind of height is really scary! I was nervous everytime the car passed through that hard cable, (dunno.. what it is) cause their seems to be a turbulence! LOL! But Cable car is a heo!! Dolhpin show is funny.. those dolphins and sea lions are amazing, and the tricks are so cool!

After Ocean Park.. and my feet is aching like hell.. we went to Lamma? island for dinner. We have a ferry ride for 30 minutes.. and Hongkong is great at night! Their buildings are full of lights.. with effects! LOL! I didnt even get bored in the 30 minutes ride.. because of those flashy lights! The restaurant we dined is the best seafood place in the island. Yum!! My f4 radar is in the fullest so every place we go, i checked on f4 relics! LOL! And yeebbaaa.. the restaurant we have dine in, there's an authographed picture of Vaness.. after eating in that restaurant! yiiii!!

Second day... we checked on the MTR (metro train.. something) err.. MRT in the Philippines! LOL! Their station is great, no delays of the trains.. and the facilities are awesome. We tried checking Jolibee Hongkong for breakfast, but ewww.. Manila branches are way much better. The store is a little bit messy and it was only located in an "eskinita" so we dined in at Mcdonals instead! Breakfast was not included in the free food accomodation, so we looked for much cheaper stores to eat breakfast. We dont want to dine in to those chinese restaurant, cause we cant understand any single menu! LOL! I might end up eating lizards or snakes! hihihi... Afternoon was spent on exploring the city.. for shopping and again picture taking! LOL! Ive checked out some cd stores, and ive seen some f4 cds which i already have.. so its useless! I just ended up seeing Karen Mok and Sammi Cheng cds.. GRRRRR!! I also went to an S&K store, and saw f4 stuffs.. ken's shirt with KEN in the back... Jerry's shirt in the posters.. and bought my dad and mom some shirts.. but i didnt got any f4 paper bag! :( I also bought a meteor necklace! LOL! I was so corny.. but heck i like it.. but still no plans of wearing it...hihihi!

Our last day was for shopping again, we didnt buy much.. but we just like to check on the city and the stores! Clothes in HK is almost the same we saw in Greenhills.. so we just do some window shopping! But i bought my sister a bag, for her birthday! cause thats all she wanted for pasalubong.. its a sunday.. so all the Filipino OCW are in the streets, doing their chatting and some are selling pirated cds from the Philippines such as Nina, Jay-R and Regine's cds. LOL! We didnt have the hard time asking for directions, cause everywhere we went, there's a Filipino in the corner! even in the MTR station, there is a Filipina cleaning the hallways! hehehe..

Our Hongkong trip was really unforgettable, i had fun.. and got tired but still it was fulfilling. When i got home, i kinda missed those chinese and our sign-language conversation! LOL! It was really hard communicating, especially asking directons.. and yeah bargaining for cheaper prices in the night market! Even if we tried giving the simplest english we thought, they cannot understand us! I remember my officemate asking for a bottle of water, and the waiter gave him a bottle of coke instead! LOL! My chopstick skills are enhaced cause some restaurants dont offer spoons and forks for eating. hehehe..

Thanks for my boss for giving me one hell of an experience.. hope the next time she will be going out of the country.. she will be packing us in her baggages again! Singapore is quite nice.. LOL!

2004-05-24T18:27:00.000+08:00
I was so lazy to update things.. and i know u dont care..LOL! I was just so lazy.. so please bear with me!

Anyways.. im so excited to watch Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban in theather.. Book 3 of the series was my favorite! I love Sirius Black and seeing Daniel in premieres.. Wowwooooweee.. so cute!

2004-05-11T18:26:00.000+08:00
Finally, the national election is over! I have voted and hope the winners will be the right one and will do good for our country. I will try to enumerate who i voted and "explain" why do they deserve my vote.

President: who else? kay GLORIA tayo! A single no vote for GLORIA is a vote for FPJ! lolz! I do believe that the President is our last best hope, thats why i am for her! Her projects and vision for the country is i think for the bettement of the people. And besides she is the lesser evil among the candidates!

Vice President: Noli de Castro.. oki.. not a good choice for the post but sleeeessssshhh id rather choose the not too much educated rather than the political prostitute in the name of Loren Legarda.

Senators: Not making a list who to vote made me regret when i voted for senators! I forgot to vote Pia Cayetano! Argh!

Perfecto Yasay: He is good. I remember him exposing annomalies during the Erap presidency, and he will do good being a senator, i guess?!

Mar Roxas: Mr. Palengke! lol! Being the DTI Secretary before, his works and what he have done in the agency is worthy for him to become a senator. Experience and dedication are the chracters ive seen in him.

Robert Barbers: I just like him!

Nene Pimentel: My boss will kill me if she read this. I dont like Nene Pimentel personally , but i believe he is a good senator. Being the Senate President before, makes me look at him as a good person.

Miriam Santiago: As what Pokwang said, Clowns are needed in the senate lately! lol!

Jay Sonza: I dunno, i just like him! Hope my vote for him is worth it!

Dick Gordon: Dedication to his work made me realize that i should vote for him. I dont like him personally, but i can see that serving the country is his cup of tea!

Orly Mercado: My dad told me to vote for him. I dont like him either, but i do believe in my dad's words in this issues!

Waaaa.. i forgot the other two that i voted! Il be drilling my brain next time and "expose" who are the remaining two.

Exercsing my right to vote feels good, i can cuss whoever damn ass politicians doing graft cause i voted for them. So whoever will be the winner, Goodluck and Bayan Muna.. Bago Sarili! lol!

2004-05-07T19:17:00.000+08:00
I never had the chance to be close to GIA , but i do catch her once in a while being one of the day crew. She sometimes keep me company during my morning spamming, and always giving me the sweetest TAKE CARE msg when she is about to leave me alone in SpamB. I never knew she was having chemotheraphy until i asked Muriel about her. It really affects me, cause this is the first time i lost a friend. We may not be as close as we are, but she is such a sweet person, and her death really affects me.

Gia, you've left us, and we are all so sad. Now we are all just going to have to wait to see you again. All you are though is a picture we can look at and those stories of you to remember you by. I will always remember you having the most beautiful back! Now its my time to say the sweetest TAKE CARE to you. Sweet Dreams Beach!

The song i wanted to dedicate to you is the song i wanted to hear when i die *crosses finger* and i want to sing it for you.

Beauty And Madness
by Fra Lippo Lippi

over there, just beneath the moon
there's a man with a burden to keep.
now sleep will fall washout rags n' paper bags.
homes and lives passing by.

who will see the beauty in your life?
and who will be there to hear you when you call?
who will see the madness in your life?
and who will be there to catch you if you fall?

now dreams run wild, as lovers find their way
through the night, not a care in the world.
and over there, over the twinkling of the lights
harbor lights, say goodnight one more time.

who will see the beauty in you life?
and who will be there to hear you when you call?
who will see the madness in your life?
and who will be there to catch you if you fall?

2004-04-25T12:10:00.000+08:00

Ive travel down south to Alabang just to see them. And ive been STARSTRUCK! I saw Spongebob and Patrick live! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. im very happy i saw them in person. I know they are mascots, but who cares i just love Spongebob and Patrick. The travel down to Albang is almost an hour, we missed the 3pm show, so we waited for another 1 1/2 hour for the next show, and the actual show ran only for 30 minutes. LOL! That is enough to make my day, we waited and after seeing Spongebob and Patrick, i was so fulfilled and happy. It is worth the long travel, and missing my officemate's party and meeting later the night! hihihihi... The show was great, Spongebod and Patrick sang their Friendship/Fun song.. " F is for friendship, U is for you and me.. lalalala.. N is for anytime and aywhere in the Bikini Bottom.. lalalala.. The soog is stupid, N is for anywhere? LOL! But that is the reason why i loved those two, stupid but cute and funny.

2004-04-23T19:12:00.000+08:00
How come ive been so busy this week? Sleeessshhh... I cant even visit this scarp and update things, or even saw ken's new picture on time! hehehe.. i dunno why im feeling this, but even if the boss was "harrassing" us with work, im still feeling okie and happy... unlike before. LOL!

Ive met this politician in a meeting, and he is kinda strange and "greedy" (a straight and direct comment about him) and its a strange feeling when you realize that those that you look up to, that you feel have it better than you are going through those shit. In some ways you can't imaging how they couldn't be happy with what they have. Argh.. some ole taditional politician in this country. It really pisses me off, cause those rightous people in our government are having this hard time "working" beacuse of this corrupt people.

Lately, i am starting to put my head up and look at the world around me and trying to develop a opinion on govement and politics. ( i guess so much exposure on it. :D) Its fun to "discover" things, but you'll or i'm getting depressed knowing that people like that politician really exist!

I guess im one of those idiots in this world who can't accept others for who they are. If those kill smileys work.. hope they'll all just kill each other and the human race will die and the food webs will get all screwed up and that's it for the world. LOL! Exagerrated defense.. but again.. give me some more TOLERANCE!

2004-04-16T20:36:00.000+08:00
The disadvantage of living away from home strikes me again. Ive been living away from them since college, cause they are in the province working, for them to send me money! LOL! Its quite okey having my own freedom, money and life, but when bills, laundry and doing the grocery needs to be done, i wished i was still living with my parents!

I am living with my sister now, we are taking turns to do the house chores, but then i have a lazy ass, thats why sometimes our room was really in a mess! I really missed my Mom's nag everytime i saw some "unorganize" thingie in our room! And when the bills came, Argh! My pay was like poofed out!

But when i think about how much i experienced in living alone and how i have become more independent, that empty feeling will fade. I am really growing up and im in the real world! How come those corn flakes and Cowhead are really expensive this days!? LOL!

2004-04-11T14:51:00.000+08:00
Im too lazy to blog for the past few days.. LOL! Dang, its Holy Week and im on a Bum Mode!

Anyway... HAPPY EASTER everyone!

2004-04-03T11:21:00.000+08:00
As i promised to my Evil cuz.. here are some of our pictures in Puerto Galera! Yikkessss! *runs*

[1]
Im the Pringles girl!
[2]
Me and my closest buddies in the office.
[3]
The sand is so white! Woweee!
[4]
Just woke up in here! LOL!

2004-04-03T10:40:00.000+08:00
Boys will always be boys. I had this really bad experience with my officemate. Not that he abused be, cause i will definetely twist his neck if he had done it. I just cant understand why men have to "men" and not just be contended on what they have and be happy. This is the reason, why i enjoyed being a single chick, LOL! I can do whatever i want without hurting anyone. But I still want to be committed in the future, but for now, i want to be free as hell.

Ive seen many broken marriages, my boss's, my two officemates, friends of friends, all messed up because of being married in a young age. Poor them, they cant just "run" out of their relationship, because in the eyes of God and men they are married. Me and my officemate, are one of the closest buddy in our workplace, and i dunno how to help him. As long as i want to help in fixing their marriage, he is the one refusing to heal the wounds of their relationship. He even said that let my marriage a mess and i can cope with it. Anyways, ive offered enough. He can always hang around with me, but there will always be line between friends and being in love.

The opposite of love is fear and upset. When this is present, you close down inside. you lose your creativity and your ability to see clearly. You get tunnel vision and you interact in a way that almost always makes your situation worse. I guess this is the reason why their marriage was on a rocks right now. Trust should always be part of a lifetime commitment.

This is what happens in life, you may not always get what you want, but you can always be free inside. Im happy that im not yet married. Soon i will be, but i will make it sure that i will not messed it up just like what ive been seeing right now!

2004-03-31T19:57:00.000+08:00
Ive been having nightmares this past few days. Three nights in a row to be exact. I considred it as nightmares because my ex-boyfriend was bugging me in my sleep! I know im over him long time ago, ahem! I think this is a "hang-over" from Pokwang's debut, teasing the hell out of me! LOL! I dunno why suddenly he came over my dreams, Sleeeesssshhh!

Anyways, since he was giving me eye bags lately, i decided to blog curses about him and something about the word L-O-V-E. He and me was together for 1 year and 10 months. Dang, we lasted that long without so much arguments and im the one being a "bully" to him as stated in my previous blog. I thought we can make it to forever until his family decided to migrate to Florida for good. I thought long-distance relationship is easy as long as you know and secured that you love each other. (LOL! im getting mushy!) But faith decided that we should put an end to this relationship, because only 2 months of being away from each other, we are having shallow arguments almost everyday. We still tried to work it out, until this girl came into our lives and he decided to truly end our relationship. Okie, he is the one who call it quits! Dang, i was so angry to myself and to that girl that time. We are talking over the phone for like 2 hours, and that causes him much. I was crying non-stop the next day over my friends. He was crying as hell too, and i dunno why! He kept on telling me that he was the one to be blamed for messing up our relationship, he even told me that he got involved with that girl because he missed me. Shit, he just met the girl online. And their relationship is just like our relationship, a long-distance one! That reason made me angier. Hell, i was really messed up that time. Crying over and over again, failing my Spanish removals, not eating a bit, and always wanna be drunk! Good thing my parents undersand what im been going through, and they just let me hang out with my friends almost every night. Anyway, im over with him. We are still friends by the way. We talked when he came back here in the Philippines after a year. Me and her girlfriend after me are friends now. She is even in my friends list in Friendster. They just broke up too.. LOL! And my ex got another girlfriend, hehehe! Isnt he a heartrob? BOOOOOO!

There are many things i realized and learned after my relationship with him. Firstly, not all relationship are guaranteed to last- even if you think they are perfect. Rather than being sour about the heartache, and being a victim by saying that man leaves me, consider the "new" you after the relationship. Relationships will always be intertwined with love, joy, sorrow and pain. Secondly, believe in yourself that you are strong enough, if the relationship has ended. I think that means there are better opportunities and that he was not really meant for you cause your tears are not worth for anyone who have hurted you much. Thridly, learn from your past mistakes. Second chances might came your way, so better not messed it up just like the mess you did in the failed one.

Love is life's most precious emotion. It is always filled with sensetive emotions which every one wanted to cherish. Remember the old saying, it is better to have love and lost than to never have loved at all. So i promised, the next time i went to have a relationship again, i will be attaining the love i seek with no strings or conditons attached.* crosses finger* LOL! Even if i was hurted before, i know i will alwats be open to love, because i know it will always be coming into my life!

2004-03-28T13:27:00.000+08:00
Ive spent Saturday night in Alpha's "condo" hehehe.. together with Tita Liezl, too bad our other friends are still busy with school stuffs and work so they cannot spent the night with us! As usual, our night was ended with never-ending stories over bottles of SanMig Light, hihihi! Threesome Awesome!

Tita Leizl is in a hurry to go home on Sunday because she will be attending his boyfriend's (read=Alexis aka Shaider, hehehehe) family gathering. Awwww.. such a sweet couple! Anyways, she is worried because she is so damn late for lunch. Thoughts came into me when i realized that i cant be such a "polite" girlfriend when i got a boyfriend again. LOL! I was used having my own time for a long time, and i was used to "bully" my boyfriend then! hehehe.. Anyway, who knows maybe i can meet someone in the future who could kick my ass into his knees.. waaahhh.. kenken we have to meet! LOL!

2004-03-27T13:37:00.000+08:00
I attended my cousin's wedding yesterday. When I arrived at Fernwoods, (the place is just so romantic for the wedding) the ceremony is almost half-way through, and i just cant believe that's my Kuya Wesly getting married! The wedding is a Christian one, so its my first time to witness that kind of wedding, he is saying his vows to his bride, in his own words, and not the usual one in a Catholic wedding! His vows was short, but we can feel the sincerity and love! My kuya is really a grown up man now, even though he is only one year older than me, i can see that i really need some maturing based on what he became right now.. hehehehe..

Me and Kuya Wesly are one of the closet cousins, together with his siblings, Hazel and Kris and my sisters! I can still remember that he is "bulol" when he was young, thats why our much older cousins calls him WETLY! And he is the most coward of my guy cousins, thats why we always tease him gay. We always play "school-schoolan" in their place, and he is always the banker, giving us money for "baon", tuition and everything cause he is the oldest among us! And i can still remember, he invented this magic notebook, (u can write as many subjects in our school can) LOL! That was so damn funny, when i grew up much older, magic notebook is actually a binder in real life! hehehe...

And now he is a married man, and will be having his own child in the next 5 months. Im really proud of my cousin. His relationship with Kim (his wife) had gone into much ups and downs, and me sometimes being a witness to those, was really happy seeing them saying their vows for forever bonding and love! Hope their marraige will be much lighter and stronger now.

Besides being happy seeing my cousin wed, me and my other relatives met again! The small "reunion" made all our spirits high, seeing my other aunties, uncles and kick-ass cousins! We had a nice laugh trip reminicing Kuya Wesly's funny and embarrassing moments when we are young. If only Kim had known it, we wonder if she will marry our cousin. hehehehe... Its nice to have occassions like this, having a family with strong tie, is really worth coming to, knowing we will have this laugh trips and never-ending "asaran" and chit chats. And again, CONGATS kuya Wesly and kim!

2004-03-21T16:13:00.000+08:00
I watched 50 First Date last night together with Pokwang and Elga. We just saw each other last Thursday and we saw each other again, LOL! How we missed each other already!

Adam Sandler is a Veterinarian, which for him long-term relationship is out of the question, and met Lucy (Drew Barrymore) in a local cafeteria and falls head over heels inlove with her immediately. Henry is immediately smitten with Lucy, and after a first chat with her about waffles and sea mammals, Henry finds himself more and more interested in Lucy. But when he sees her the following day, she hasn't a clue who he is! Lucy suffers from a rare brain disorder, or the loss of her short term memory from an accident last year. The only thing she remembers was the day before the accident. Her father and her brother was doings things everyday.. and its awful!

Henry (Adam Sandler) realized that if he really wants to win her affection, he’s going to have to start over again every day for the rest of his life. This was funny, with the help of his friend, ULA (Rob Schneider) they make clever ways to meet Lucy everyday such as plotting a kidnap scene.

I enjoyed the movie, cause Love really rules! Henry have to make a video everyday, so that Lucy can rememeber that she had an accident, and have to live life as new everyday. The effort of Henry was superb! A typical playboy at the start and an ever loving husband in the end. Too bad, Adam's song was not as good as Grow Old with You in The Wedding Singer.

Today is my sister's birthday. Wowee.. she had really grown up. She is already 14, and we still see her as a young kiddo, LOL!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE GELLI!

And Ethan was voted out, for God's sake. After Colby.. now its Ethan! BOYCOTT SURVIVOR ALL-STAR! LOL!

2004-03-17T19:20:00.000+08:00
Tomorrow is Pokwang's debut.. err birthday! And im one the most excited "friend" because she will be treating us for a big time blow-out somewhere in San Juan! Woweeee.. Pokwang.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Pokwang is one of my closest friend, who knows me by heart, mind, soul and BODY! hihihi.. We've known each other since high school freshmen, and i can still remember that we got closer when BUTETA courted her.. hahahaha! Un ba talaga Pokwang or Addison's endless love for u, Trixie?

I never had a dull moment with her, back in high school we are called BIG FOUR together with Siaron and Janis *waaa.. missed that two*, we are called big because we are the "brain" of all the harassment, bribery and crimes in the classroom. Hihihi.. Pero in fairness, me HONOR yan si Pokwang when we graduated! *see what BRIBERY can do these days! Hehehehe!*

When we grew up *LOL..much older than we are since high school* we still make it a point to see each other and live life to the "FULLEST". And now, we are always together, struggling in this battle of being a bachelorette, because some of our KAPUSO abandoned us. *hehehe!* We are still "organizing" kick-ass gatherings to make other lives miserable! hehehehe...

Pokwang, empanadang mainit, my co-fairy (pretty ones), Alpha.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY and i will always be here for you, no matter how stupid we can be in the future! Ure one of the Kewlness KAPUSO i have... o sha LASINGIN mo ko bukas ha, and salamat hindi mo naisip na magpunta na naman sa Punchline para mapanood ang "sana mama, ako na lang ang gawin mong Papa, Papa!" ewwww... ewwww.. ewwww.. Pa-kiss nga jan! Mwah.. mwah! HAPPY 23rd BDAY! Hahahaha.. Announcement ng Age!

2004-03-13T20:05:00.000+08:00
The Ever so famous song nowadays.. LOL! William Hung.. Jia You! U made my day.. Even if not im an American Idol addict.. Im reading news about him!

talk to me tell me your name
you blow me off like it's all the same
you lit a fuse and now i'm ticking away
like a bomb yeah baby

talk to me tell me your sign
you're switchin' sides like a gemini
you're playing games
and now you're hittin' my heart
like a drum yeah baby

well if lady luck
gets on my side
we're gonna rock this town alive
i'll let her rough me up
'til she knocks me out
'cause she walks like she talks
and she talks like she walks

chorus
she bangs she bangs
oh baby when she moves she moves
i go crazy 'cause she
looks like a flower
but she stings like a bee
like every girl in history

she bangs she bangs
i'm wasted by the way she moves
no one ever lokked so fine
she reminds me
that a woman's got one thing on her mind

talk to me tell me the news
you'll wear me out like a pair of shoes
we'll dance all night until the band goes home
then you're gone yeah baby

well if it looks like love
should be a crime
they better lock me up for live
i'll do the time
with a smile on my face
thinkin' of her in her
leather and lace

repeat chorus

man if lady luck
gets on my side
we're gonna rock this town alive
i'll let her rough me up
'till she knocks me out
'cause she walks like she talks
and she talks like she walks

repeat chorus

2004-03-13T18:22:00.000+08:00
We are in the hot water again. (For those who know where im working, u know what i mean.. LOL!) I dunno why this people are so insecure about the current admininstration. They are always looking for holes, that will make a "big" issue and will make them popular in GMA's behalf. Whatever they call it, electioneering or what so ever, we are doing our job of helping the indigents and the needy. Lets face it, GMA is very advantagous in this election, she is the imcumbent..so why make a fuss about it. Afraid of her future victory? As my boss said, " Eh ano ngayon kung matalo siya, GMA pa din sha, tahimik na ang buhay ni MAM, e kung matalo si Ping Lacson, Senador pa din siya, mas nakaawa ang Pilipinas."

Im not for GMA (read= Gloria Macapagal Arroyo and not GMA 7.. LOL!) when im still in college, im the usual for Roco-free-education-in-the-future student who wants some changes in the government. Im still for Roco, but I realized that no matter how he tried running, and no matter how great his platforms will be, he lacks this machinery for becoming a president. I think if he run for Vice-President he can have this chance of victory.

When i started working, i saw some lights that made me realized that the president is "still our last best hope". Her projects and experience are really for our betterment. She is a strong willed women, that can outrun other men in politics. She is a women who rocks!

When FPJ won, i wanna run away from reality. Ive been receiving emails from friends, and heo FPJ is really dumb.. If he will be our next president i would rather be a caregiver in Taiwan (who knows, i will be taking care of Kenken.. LOL!) What's he gonna do, drop an anvil on my head? FPJ jokes are funny as hell, but when he become our president.. Makukuha pa ba nating tumawa? Kasi alam ko hindi na natin makukuhang sumaya pa.

so just a friendly reminder...

2004-03-08T11:40:00.000+08:00
I dunno, but im not in the mood going back to Manila this week! hihihi.. Sleeessshh, im sick and tired of being sick and tired! Ive been in a turmoil for the past week, and i dunno why?! Thats why i decided to come home, and be a bum for the weekend!

Armed with vcds from Rachelle, and remote control in hands, my couch is ready for my big time ass! YIIII! I enjoyed myself watching Marmalade Boy and some other behind the scenes of Kenken! He made my day again! LoL!

As usual, Marmalade Boy made me cry! Because that damn Yuu left Guang Xi without telling the real reason why is breaking up with Guang Xi! The scene is really awww.. Yuu is very upset! I havent had the chance to watch Marmalade Boy in the series aired in GMA, because i dont have a TV yet in Manila when it was showed, and GMA's dubbing of Ken's voice is heyoooo.. like a monster! I cant believe Stella will look good for Ken, cause i only want Rainie for Kenken! And i will only give up Ken for Rainie! Hihihihi... But Stella can be a substitute for Rainie now!

Marmalade Boy

Anyway, im back with my senses now.. This weekend made my self again! *rawwwr* so remember! Dont mess with the cat! LoL!

2004-03-01T18:54:00.000+08:00
I still have the Puerto Galera experiece hangover, so i guess i have to blog it for future reminiscing!

Friday
We arrived in the pick up point resort at around 5:40pm.. LoL the "bangkeros" told us that we have to leave immediatly or we have to conquer big waves on our way to Coco Beach which is 45minutes boat ride! Im from Mindoro, but it was my first time to go to Coco Beach! The boat ride was really fun at first, one of our companion got sea sick so we just teased the poor guy to death! LoL! We also had the chance to see dolphins on the way, Wowiieee.. that was superb! Free dolphin show! We sailed peacefully for at least 30 minutes, but when we are almost in the middle of the sea ride, no islands or whatever in the vicinity, we experieced slight water interuptions that made some of us panic! That was really scary, but the sunset made us relaxed.

We arrived at the resort at around 7pm and immediatly ate our dinner, so that we can explore the island immediatly! We also joined the frog race, LoL, so weird but Gilbert won 300 bucks for betting the coolest frog! hahahaha... When we checked our rooms, that was one hell of a hike! Made my legs sore, and my breathing non-stop! Almost at the top of the mountain, but heck the room is awesome!
We cant be stopped in our first night at the resort, so we checked the seashore for tommorrow's swimming plans! hihihi.. They played beach volleyball in the shore, and made some guest pissed off, because some are having a quite candlelight dinner by that time! But to no avail, we just played and make them find another place away from us!

We also made some bigtime drinking, so im in that activity! But they are heavy drinkers, such as my Kuyas in the office, mga "batikan" so im off early but drunk! What a tired and peaceful night for me..

Saturday
Our first day the resort, so we are all excited to go swimming! Waaa.. Cant miss this thing when im here! We are not allowed to swim at some vicinities of the resort, so we just had to be contented on snorkling, anyway thats an opportunity to swim too..LOL!

The fishes are amazing! *Good thing, i have enough control not to eat them.. hihihihi* I got some bruishes and got bitten by a small jellyfish, but its okey, scars of valor is easy for me to accept that time! We even hired a bangka for some island hopping and more snorkling venues, wowieeee, underwater world is amazing!

Night strikes, and we are at the seashore again, drinking and the non-stop teasing and "hiritan". We had so much fun and we are almost 30 people talking non-stop! And my favorite toy that night was Dan, LOL! The Bulaklak of our office, a certified closet king, but afraid to come out! Hahahaha..

Sunday
Our last day. Didnt have the chance to go swimming for the last time, because we just stayed in the cafe in the seashore and made some lurking in the almost making out couples, and some sun bathing hunks and critized some foreigners! LOL! and we had our hearts out swimming last saturday, so i guess thats the reason why im not in the mood to swim again! And sunburn hurts!

The suppose to be staff planning, became a staff bonding solely! But its oki, at least the tsimis and gap between us faded, no more walls or whatsoever! I really had fun spending the weekend with them! Nothing beats them!

Il be posting some pics, when it was developed! LOL!

2004-02-24T21:31:00.000+08:00
I dunno why im feeling a little bit high today! Cant believe im feeling happier, after days of being pissed off with some creatures in the office! We are friends again, with this girl with the bangs! Sleesh , i think i cant stand being so much pissed with her, because we are always together! Same work, same buddies at the office, same bitcheness! hihihi.. but i think she is better than me in that sense, some of our officemates can still stand mine!

We had a staff meeting this morning, at first we were bothered because we thought we messed some things up again. But the boss, just gave us some reminders of our security and some food for the soul advices! She is totally awesome when it comes to this! I can still remember her line , "Dito ka lang magiging number 1 sa sarili mong bansa! Kasi Pilipino ka!" and i remember when she "almost" bark on us.. " Nasan na ang paglilingkod bayan at serbisyong totoo nyo?" There are so many things my boss have thought me, being as "hard-working" as she is, the patience, the "pakikisama" and being charitable to the less fortunate. I know, my days at the office are numbered, but still im not loosing anything, (only the pay.. LOL), i know i gained more! I will definetely missed the big boss, her "stuborness", the what we called "weather-weather" attitude, and the "kaba" she is always giving me when she is with me. She is a friend and a mother outside our office. We even call her by first name when we are having night outs and out-of-towns. At least im a little bit proud of myself, when our term was over. I know i helped someone, i know i become more "mature" in the real world.

We will be having a staff planning this weekend, lah cant wait for that day! cant wait to swim in the beach and do some more bonding with the whole staff. Who knows, we will not be doing this all together after May? hihihi...

and i have a new banner.. isnt ken the cutest? LOL!

2004-02-21T19:06:00.000+08:00
The week that was. Fine, i know this blog havent my priority for the past few days, and i missed blabbing! LOL! I was just pissed off to some what do u call them abster? Bad fishes? lurking in my blog! Good thing im a tuna lover, and i ate them alive! *rawr* Remember, Dont Mess with the Cat! hihihi...

The week was fine, except Thursday! I cant believe i was going to be pissed off for the whole day! That girl in the office with big time bangs really Sucks! I will not be getting tired cursing you, until u turned into a living and breathing bangs! LOL! Can u imagine, she gave me her work, typing all the municipalities in the Philippines, (lah! Laguna has 40 municipalities alone) and she except me to type all the municipalities in the 7,500 ( i think?!) islands in the Philippines! Gooolaaay! She is not even my boss! Good thing, two of my officemates offered help, and before we finished typing.. another one of my officemate told us that we can get a copy of the list of that damn thing in DILG! Grrrr... i am in front of the computer for the whole day, and the output will just turn into a crap?! Damn that girl with the Bangs!

I just watched Chasing Liberty. Oki, i just wanted to feel light, its a weekend! It was fine. A typical teen love story. Mandy Moore is the daughter of the USA president who wanted to have freedom and life outside the White House, without the bodyguards, without the fame and with just normal people around her! She met Ben Closer, who happens to be a secret agent of her father who has been commissioned to protect her without Anna's (Moore) knowledge. They went to Venice, Austria, and Prague and eventually fell in love. But when Anna found out Ben's identity she went freak and returned to her daddy's nest. Anna then realized that he loved Ben when he found out that he quitted from her father's force, and become a photographer in London.

The movie was good. But i dont like Mandy Moore, just wanted to watch a movie this day! I chose it better than Kuya! hihihi.. and Cold Mountain. I want to watch Cold Mountain some other day, just wanted to relax today cause i know Nicole's movie will be a mind buggling one! LOL!

And i miss Xt.. any news from him?!

2004-02-17T18:09:00.000+08:00
Im just so tired and disturbed today. *lah, im always! im sick and tired of being sick and tired!* I dunno, im just tired after assuming some "more" work load after one of my officemate had its maternity leave starting today! Her work is so damn tiring, physically and mentally! I know ive been online the whole day, but hell-lah im doing some inhale and exhale once in a while... I dunno if i made my work superb as hers, when she was still here. I think i "still" cannot handle this kind of work.. dealing with people who have "kakulitan" as thier surname! Its hard to talk to people who are following up their requests, and they want it rushed! Did they know that their request will still make a loooong way inside this agency before it was returned to our department! And they are calling every minute! It makes me irritated every time i hear the phone rings, and praying it was not for me! I havent had enough orientation on the burden added on me, so i have to ask every people.. everyone who knows it! I feel so clueless and incapable being an executive assistant! I think i need more experience and orientation, i dunno long will i be stuck in this work! Im not enjoying it anymore, not my whole work i guess.. just this additional burden! How long? According to my knowledge, maternity leave is effective for two months.. ARGH! i cannot survive for 2 days! Hope my boss will see how unhappy i am with this burden, im just enjoying my life before eventhough she is calling me and "insisting" me to see her everytime she calls! Ive been used to that! I have a feeling that i will messed up complicated matters everytime i got a call from them, evrytime i received papers.. and everything! Sleeessshh.. its the Board of Directors, im dealing right now!

2004-02-14T12:53:00.000+08:00
Willie Nep For President

Last night, i really had a good ole laughing trip when i watched the show of the comedian Willie Nepomuceno! At first, i was hesitant in watching it, bec. duhh politics again! I think i was getting fedup with this things, since my boss is involved in this campaign sortings and everything, and she is getting me involoved too! At least, my officemate buddy convienced me, so my alibis are safe for the night!
The punchlines are a liitle bit corny and boring, but the way he impersonates the personalities are superb! The voice, mannrisms, clothes are so cloned! You will forget that, it was Willie Nep! The parts i enjoyed very much is when he impersonated Raul Roco and FPJ! LOL.. Raul Roco sang Viva Hot Babes' Bulaklak! I cant imagine the real Raul Roco doing that dance number! He even talked to the plants and flowers in his garden, " Magandang Umaga mga flowers! Pag tumira tayo Malacañang magiging PSG kayo, Presidential Security Garden! LOL! So Raul Roco! I really laugh my ass out when he cloned FPJ, the anwers, the acting is so FPJ! The audience even asked questions, for an open forum! Serious questions got stupid answers! Kung kayo po ba ang magiging presideente, mangungurakot din ba kayo? The answer.. straight from his heart, E kung ikaw and maging presidente, di ba mangungurakot ka din! LOL! BUTATA!
The other personalities cloned were Ping Lacson aka Pink Lactum, the show displayed his or hers being a "gay" showing off being a Reyna Elena pics before becoming a policeman, Noli De Castro, in his Magandang Gabi Bayan tv show, doing a documentary about Loren Legarda, Dolphy showing support to FPJ saying if he will run for president and won what he will do after winning, Nur Misuari, Gringo Honasan, etc!
Hope it will have a repeat, so at "least" every Filipino will catch the message of the show! Vote Wisely..."Vote for GMA" LOL...

2004-02-12T22:24:00.000+08:00
An addition to my collections of wallpapers.. isnt the guy so cute?!

2004-02-11T19:59:00.000+08:00
Porshie, Thanks for this cute cat piks! Really love it! *mhuazz* Keep on sending me!

Tangtang and Fifi according to porshie.. LOL! That shit thing reminds me of Fifi very well..

And a family Picture... tangtang is the orange and white pussy and Fifi.. is the black one! *he is dark!! WAHAHAHAHA*

2004-02-09T16:48:00.000+08:00

Its A Jinxed Day!
After a experiencing so much "fun" last night and today, i just realized that BAD THINGS happen to BAD PEOPLE! After watching Survivor, (yesshh.. i love that show very much!) i got a call from the big boss that i should go to her place to do something, and the most "exciting" of all is i have to sleep over! AGH.. What Life!? I have to go out again, READ: it was almost 9:30pm! Im about to sleep, and dream about ETHAN and COLBY after seeing them in Survivor! So i immediately fix myself and im off!

After arriving in her place, i was asked to work immediately! And when dawn comes, i think its almost 3am, when i really feel this calling of bed! Even if im finished with things, i slept and wake up at 5am.. duh to continue what i didnt finished a while ago! At 8am, i was asked to go to UP Diliman to meet some people, no baths and armed with a little breakfast! WAAAHH.. i felt like sleeping in the car! And when i have the chance to go home, nobody is left to open that damn gate! Good thing, my sister arrived and treat me to lunch for some ice-breaking jokes for at least bring back myself and not to wreck that gate!

Ei, jeremyr, Thanks for helping out in that archiving thing! Cant think much..my brain is just ussed up last night! *LOL.. i have one!*

2004-02-05T19:20:00.000+08:00
Im so happy today! Yeeeyyyy..the loneliness in me just faded when it was confirmed that i will not be going to Tuguegarao! YAHOOO.. i will not be stucked with the 10-11 hours travel...ARGH! My first travel at Tuguegarao is really frustrating, its my first time to have that kind of LOOONG travel! We left Manila by plane, and after the meetings at 10pm we have to go back to Manila immediatly for Saturday meetings! See how miserable that trip is...And i sweared i will not be coming back, and the reality comes in! IM NOT GOING! and i can watch the magic kitchen premiere with my sister, Rachelle, my greatest ken freak buddy-Bibai and Riel.. hope Wani and Haidz can make it! Im not that Jerry fan, but still as a sign of support to Ken's buddy *hihihi* i will be seeing it, and Jerry is handsome in the movie, so thats worth watching!

The big boss is in the good mood, so the atmosphere in the office is back to normal.. HAHAY! The bad weather is over, and she seems well-rested after a day's off in the "campaign" and office work! wahhh.. i will be going to work early tomorrow, she will come at 8am for an early meeting! Agh..tardiness is a NO-No tom.. hehehe!

So see yah! *my blogs are getting meaningless everyday* hehehe...

2004-02-04T14:45:00.000+08:00
Its nice to have people i dont know and "actually" met coming in my blogspot and appreciate the crap im doing! Ken freaks rules here.. yey! yey!

I missed posting yesterday, my alter ego reigned and the lazziness in me won again! I was so wasted and doesnt feel like working or even moving to make things! I started working around 3pm yesterday, i just chat and chat with my officemates and ate! hehehe.. After "working" at 6pm, i went to meet Alpha again. Yes, the two of us again! Our "kapusos" are so "busy" to even bother having dinner with two lonely freaks! Well its not our fault, when they started blabbing "Bakit hindi na tayo nagkikita-kita?", we are making an effort to see them, but they are the ones who are making endless alibis and blah, blah! Sometimes, im being fed up by those alibis, and thanks to Alpha for still having the patience of communicating with them, when we have the plans of going out! *pakiss nga jan, mwah, mwah* To my kapusos, *u know who u are* if u happen to read this shit..Sana matuloy na mga plano nyo!

I dont feel like going to the office today, so i went to the office at 1pm! Hihihi.. i know the big boss will not be coming, so the mouse is playing when the cat is away! *Hmpf, Im the cat!* i dunno whats happening to me, but im so lazy and disturb this past few days! UGhhhhhh... Same shit, different Day!

2004-02-02T19:11:00.000+08:00
I have a new gif.. Wohoo..

2004-02-02T17:47:00.000+08:00
I hate Mondays..I have to wake up early for me to attend the flag ceremony. Im working in a government agency, so yes we have flag ceremonies during Mondays. In my almost 6 months stay here in the office, i have attended only 2 flag ceremonies..I dunno but im so slow during Mondays, perhaps i still have "aftershocks" of my weekend bumming..

The first hours of my morning was spent, talking to some generals and policeman..*Yikes.. they are scary people* thier supposed to be meeting with our boss was cancelled due to some "miscommunications" and "wrong" information..as a result, a beating from the boss! Yeah.. my first time to hear words from her, i was so afraid to speak and explain our side! I cannot eat lunch either, UGH!

Anyway in the brighther side, I think i have the small chance of seeing The Magic Kitchen premiere.. I have heard that I will not be going to the Tuguegarao travel.. I Hope!
And this blog is improving.. Yey! Yey!

To all those who are checking this crap.. Thanks and Ken RULes!!

2004-02-01T21:25:00.000+08:00
Have you noticed that *sings* dont stop ask for more.. nanana.. nanana..nanana *dont know the lyrics.. so im going to shaddap* I searched for it badly.. so dont u just close my blogspot window, can u at least listen to the music..and ignore my blogs!

My day went as usaul, my mommy and my lola, came to visit some relatives and us (me and my sister) of course.. Good thing our room was cleaned and polished, because for sure we will be getting blah, blah, blah from both of them! We just ate dinner together with my other cousins.. and my day was over! My sister is getting gaga over this starstruck finals.. so she insisted that we should go home immediately for her to watch the finals..

Weekend is over.. Back to reallity tom! Werk.. Werk..Werk..

see yah!

2004-01-31T20:52:00.000+08:00
I DIDNT CHEAT!!!!

Ken...Nice, Cool, hot

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2004-01-31T20:32:00.000+08:00
Got a Meteor Garden Character quiz.. dont want to cheat the quiz to get Xi men.. so IM

2004-01-31T11:09:00.000+08:00
Why do mornings have to be so bad this time? I was bugged by some missed calls at 7:00am, see how cruel they are, did they know that its weekend, i have to "at least" get some long hibernation this time of the week?! The security "force" and driver of our boss was taken by some UFO, i guess,and i cannot find them to give some instuctions on what they have to do today! Their cellphones are unattended and some doesnt own one! How can i see or talk to them? Argghh.. i have to go the office, without taking a bath and without breakfast, to wait for some creature and see what i can do! Yes, Im stuck here all alone! What a wonderful Saturday...And my suppossed to be "date" *hihihihi* with Alpha is going to be cancelled by this being stuck at the office.. at least i have this blog for companion!

Anyway the day was not yet over.. positive "blessings" might still come.. *i hope*Anybody for the challenge of fixing my day?

See yah... and Hope to have a Nice day after this struggle of being a "carreer" woman.. *hihihi*

2004-01-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

MESSED UP

Waah.. How many times i have to edit this thing..so that it can work out! Hope this one will..

Thanks to Abster for the guidance and patience.. i really sucks as a student thats why i wanted to be a pre-school teacher instead

I wasted my time doing this blog, abusing office internet! God thing the big boss was not in to give me nerve-cracking errands! I wonder when our memo will be given! *crosses finger*

This crap i made is not a masterpiece, because i dont know much about this! Im open for comments, but be ready to be cursed because i will messed up ur lives!
See yah..